Genesis 1:11a”Each seed is in itself on the earth”.
When I take a look at who I am as a man, have to look back at from where I came from within my life. After I notice the things that were before me many times before, I didn’t notice the seed that was already place within me. I was so busy searching for my purpose but I missed the growth of the seed that were growing in my life.
I became focus on everything else instead of focusing on what was in front of me. I kept missing the real me! Have you been in that place where you are so busy looking to please everything else around you, that you have forgotten about yourself. I have been here so many times before that I was truly missing one of the biggest seeds that were place in my life. I was missing me from coming forward and I was missing what the Lord had place within my soil. I didn’t see the growth because I was so busy focusing on someone else seed. I was so busy trying to water someone else growth and trying to pulled the grass that were growing around the beautiful flower that was growing in their life. I forgot and did not take a look at my growth and I did not take time to stand in the Son and gather in all my necessary needs that I needed so badly in my life.
Each seed was place within my life and I did not let my seed grow within my life, because I was so busy living everyone else dreams and visions and I close my seed down. Please forgive me for dropping the growth of the seeds that were place in my life and for not letting my growth please you. I am sorry because I did not understand that I was despising my small growth in my life.
Zechariah 4:10 “Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin, to see the plumb line Zerubbabel’s hand”. (The seven lamps represent the eyes of the Lord that search all around the world).
I didn’t think my life was important. I think no one care for me. I did not know that my small beginning even matter in the hand of the Lord. I cried out so many times and never knew that my tears were watering my growth. I did not know that my purpose was still lying in the same place where I left it. Lord, forgive me for not trusting you with my small beginnings and not understanding that the seed that you have place within me has not been something that I wanted so much to be within my life. I am seeking for my world to be change not because I am a seed, but because I am faithful to understanding that I am needed in the process of understanding who I am in you, Lord.
Plant within me a new understanding of my seed and teach me how to be a farmer for your Kingdom sake. Teach me how to harvest in a garden that will be pleasing in your eyes. Teach me how to take the seed that is on the inside of me, and teach me to become reborn to another placement in the Lord.
2 Chronicles 16:9 “For the eyes of the Lord move to and from throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His. You have acted foolishly in this, indeed from now on you will surely have wars”.
Help me Lord, to be the person that you can find as you are searching throughout the earth. Here I am Lord, I am standing up as a new growth for your glory. I know that you are search for those who will worship you in Spirit and Truth. I am seeking you Lord as much as you are seeking for your seeds that are place within my life. Help me, to walk upright, to live according to your wills and ways. Teach me how to be a small harvest in your hands. Mold me to operate as a seed and help me to continue to die in the process of this growth and let me understand why I am stilled at the grace of the seed that is still keeping me in the same place where I first begin to grow.
I want to be a seed that can be used for your greatness. Not because I am just a seed, but that I must understand that I must died inside of the center of the seed. One of my biggest problems in dying is that I do not want to died. I believe that I am purpose here to stay, but each week, each day. each second there are so many ways that ensure me that death must come and it must happen. But even though all this death situation is happening around me, until I am willing to died as a seed, then I am not willing to be born according to the word of God. I must die so that Christ must increase in my life.
Job 8:7 “Though your beginning was small, yet your latter end should greatly increase”.
Looking back at my life and the seeds that I have sown, I have to ask myself a lists of questions. Did I do all that I could do to be successful in the power of the Lord? Did I allow my seed to died? Did I truly seek the Lord? Did I submit to the Lord my understanding or my reason for what has happen? I am I willing to understand that I am born small and not big or fully grown? So, when I am looking at where I am in life, I have to know if I am dying out to the myself or to my friends and family members and replace them with the Lord instead of just dying in the first place. Did I make them to become a god in my life instead of just dying out to the god of myself?
After my question lists, I am left with a deep look into the hole that I just pulled myself out of. You see, I did not realize that the Lord had place me in the soil in the very first beginning of my life. I was so busy taking care of everything else around me, that I could not understand the source that I am still inside of the most. I did not know I was in some soil. I did not know why I was so dirty and I there are some parts on me that were dying. I did not understand that on the inside of me was not from this world and no matter how many times, I have tried to fix into in this world, I was not from this place. I am a seed from the Lord.
Hosea 2:3 “Who is left among you that saw this house in her first glory?”
Proverbs 15:3 “The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good”.
Revelation 5:6 “And I beheld and see in the middle of the throne and the four living beings and among the twenty – four elders”.
After I looked at my life, I realize that I am just a seed that must died. I am a seed that must be dry out from the lifestyle that I am in. I must be a seed that must lay out in the sun and died of thirst. I must be a seed that goes through the process of dying and stop fighting the outcome of the process. I must learned that once this take place, I must be not more again. The last reason that I must do, is realize that once I am dead I cannot come back anymore, but I can become the birth of the seed that I am supposed to be in Him.